Sunday, October 21, 2007

its funny how the day can start so well, and things are going according to our plans, yet in the midst of things realisation can hit us and remind us of the life we live and that suddenly one day those whom we love may no longer be a phone call away.

on friday afternoon, i rushed home to clean the house, my mum was coming back from Dubai, and for a whole 10 days it was me and the boys, so the house standard was not up 2 scratch of course due to the boys...

whilst scrubbing away at the kitchen floor, the phone rang, i answered and was happy to hear my uncles voice all the way from Libya, although he thought i was thabet (people always mistake our voices!!!!).

he didnt actually sound to good, and he asked for my dad, to which i told him he wasnt available, so i was the one to recieve the news of the passing away of my grandmother.

inillah wa inna illyhee raj3oon (to allah we belong and to him we return).

it was as if some one had thrown a bucket of ice cold water over my head, i went numb, and i didnt know how to react, 00kitty was sat in the kitchen with me and thank god she was there as i was alone at home and it felt good to have a friend to break the news to.

i think the fact that i had to inform my father caused me more stress and prevented me from breaking down and crying. its not an easy thing to tell some one that there mother had returned to her creator.

i sit here typing away with tears in my eyes filling up ready to unleash onto my cheeks, tears of sadness, partly for my father and partly for missing out on years of not living with her or growing up with her in my life due to the political situation and for that i always curse a particullar so called 'leader'.

my memories of my grandmother i will cherish for a long time and each time i remember her i smile, never have i heard a harsh word from her, all she offered where smiles and the last few years of her life she became even more special as she was the last living grandparent.

i couldnt have asked for a better grandmother may allah have mercy on her soul.

i pray that Allah swt accepts her efforts of the life she lived, that he grants her jannah and that i am not denied seeing her in the after life.

Hajja Fatima you will forever be in our hearts and your memory will live on.

22 comments:

PH said...

عظم الله اجركم في المرحومة و ان شاء الله تنكتب من اهل الجنة وربي يصبركم انشاء الله

سلام

Brave Heart said...

عظم الله اجرك فى جدتك واسكنها الله فسيح جناته وغفر لها ذنوبها انشالله

Keepsmile5 said...

Assalam Aliekoum
From Allah we come and to Allah we should return "ena lillah wa ena elaih la raje3oon"
May Allah have mercy on her soul and grant her Aljanna
I pray that Allah accept her good deeds and forgive her.

Salam

a_akak said...

عظم الله اجركم

Ina lillah wa ina laho raga3een

I am very sorry to hear about the passing away of your grandmother and may allah accpet her soul and may allah consider her of the sale7een

Fe AMAN Allah

lostkitty said...

Salam I'm glad I could be there for u... sometimes its nice to have someone there to help u get thru the numb times.

I know what it is to lose some u love (as u know) and its hard. Take one day at a time and make lots of dua. Its the best way.

Call me if u need anything, watever the time.

Anglo-Libyan said...

عظم الله اجركم

I have read what you have written about your grandmother before and have seen her picture too, she was a beautiful lady, a typical kind looking grandmother.
May Allah bless her soul and give all of you patience to go through this hard time, it is always more difficult for people like us as we live abroad away from our loved ones.

My condolences to all the family

Anonymous said...

salaams sis

i'm really sorry to hear about your loss, inna lillahe wa ilahe rajeeon, may Allah forgive your grandmother, have mercy on her, elevate her status in the hereafter, and rejoin your family in jannatul firdaws ameen

while reading i kept wondering if it was the same gran you were talking about this other time, the day she left england, in the end of your entry i found out it was coz i saw her pic. i pray Allah makes it easy for your family ameen

Anonymous said...

P.s the above comment was by eternal peace9sorry wasn't able to sign in for soem reason!)

Monday's Child said...

Dearest WA, I am so very very sorry for your loss... I have no words of consolation on this prayer I can share with you:

"O my God! O Thou forgiver of sins, bestower of gifts, dispeller of afflictions!

Verily, I beseech Thee to forgive the sins of such as have abandoned the physical garment and have ascended to the spiritual world.

O my Lord! Purify them from trespasses, dispel their sorrows, and change their darkness into light. Cause them to enter the garden of happiness, cleanse them with the most pure water, and grant them to behold Thy splendors on the loftiest mount."

- 'Abdu'l-Bahá

Anonymous said...

Assalaamu aleikum
Inna Lillahi wa inna ilayhi raji'oun.
My condolences to you and your family for your loss. May Allah have mercy on your grandmother and comfort your family at this sad time.
H.

Weldemdina said...

inalelah wa inalelyehy raje3oon..my deepest condolences.

ibeebarbie said...

Salam White African,
I'm so sorry to hear about your grandmother. May Allah bless her. May your family find comfort in Allah.

white african said...

i would like 2 thank every one for ther ekind words and 2 say ameen to the duas and prayers.

thank you so much and may allah accept her efforts and grant her rsting place in jannah.

life is hard, may allah grant us all patience.

Maya said...

I'm sorry for your loss
انا لله وانا اليه راجعون

في امان الله

Highlander said...
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Highlander said...

Dearest White African, I've click on your blog today expected to see as usual your funny and informative stories and I was hit by the sad news of your grandmother's death. May God bless her soul ! Please accept my condolences even though they are quite late - they do emanate from the heart.

Yours sis,
H.

(ps sorry for double posting)

Khadijateri said...

So sorry to hear of your grandmother's passing. May Alla h reward her for all her goodness.

white african said...

thank you maya, highlander and khadijah, ameen :)

NM said...

may you all be reunited in jannah inshallah

Hibo said...

سامحيني وخيتي
وياريت تتقبل مني التعازي ول كانت متأخرة

ربينا يتقبلها برحمته ومغفرته ويجعلها مع الصديقين في جنة الخلد والنعيم


وريحمنا ويرحم موتنا أجمعين

white african said...

thanks nm, ameen

and ammen to your lovely dua hibo :)

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