Wednesday, February 13, 2008

you really never think of yourself as emotional until life triggers your emotions to spill out and then your left with the feeling of revealing too much.

and all it can take is the soft spoken words that is 'are you ok?'

and you find the tears rolling down the cheeks, and god forbid if your wearing mascarra... (reminds me of magda rumi's song, al matar al aswad feeee 3ayneeeeeee).

and once you begin crying then the weeks, months of holding in the tears are to be released after the initial first tear drop.

tears are a gift because a 'good cry' really does make you feel better.

tears are words that the heart cant express - well in my case it is.

some one once said that they loved walking in the rain because then no one knows that shes crying.

one things for certain is that our eyes do need to be washed by our tears (not all the time) so that life can be seen alot clearer
ive never been one for crying infront of others including loved ones, i feel vunrable to be seen crying, like im some how exposing a weakness in me, so that if i ever do loose the control of holding in my tears, it usually because i have lost control of my emotions.
but the light at the end of the tunnel continues to shine.
and dua is seriously a powerful tool.

14 comments:

Anonymous said...

hope you are ok dear sister, we do need crying sometime not to wash just our eyes but also to wash our hearts. this kind of crying never be a weakness sign. i know u r strong and you come over whatever make you crying.

l-k

NATIVE FEMALE said...

A post that spoke directly to me WA....with sentiments that ring true to mine.
Thank you for sharing sis

Crowded Mind said...

girl
without using our tears we can't live at all
I feel better when I cry
I remember once in my oral exam the Dr was egyption and he killed me was the worse oral in my life and my friends were waiting to get in after me
when I left the room I couldn't handle that I cried infront of them,,they felt afraid,couldn't answer the Quest too
so sister keep going

a_akak said...
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a_akak said...

“Are you ok?"

A nice word can make you feel good but a word from the heart can melt ice and cleanse the soul

It makes me sad to see u in pain, so insha allah the cloud will be lifted and the laughter will fill you life and may you never feel pain

Fe Aman allah

UT said...

Come on girl get your act together, for you are young and healthy , Alhamduliah .

If I were to tell you about what I have to go through each single day ........... you'd not only cry tears but rivers , yet my dear I move on ,cause I love life and want to live each single day as though it were my last.Yallah.. Alhamdulilah.


Please cheer up .

take care and may Allah bless you.

Amina said...

very touching post, hope you are feeling better now...lately i do too feel as it is raining on me
salaams from poland

ibeebarbie said...

Salam White African,
As always, very well expressed. I'm always amazed at how many women I have in my life that feel the exact same way that you do about not wanting to cry in front of others----or maybe not at all. I'm wondering if some how these individuals were some how told and decided on their own at a very young age that crying was "bad" or "wrong". Sometimes when Amira starts crying for what seems no apparent reason at all I struggle with not utter the words, "stop your crying---there's nothing to cry about", for I never want her to feel crying is a "bad" thing. For we even have tears when we laugh too hard sometimes and those should be just as welcomed as the others.

I hope you are doing well, and if you need to talk, vent, cry or whatever, please let me know.

white african said...

thank you so much everyone for your kind words and thoughts.

i guess life has its ups and downs and can be a roller coaster ride interms of emotional experineces.

im feeling better hamdullilah and i was extremley touched by you all so a big thanks :)))))

MusicLover said...

"you really never think of yourself as emotional until life triggers your emotions to spill out and then your left with the feeling of revealing too much."

It depends on the person infront of you

"and you find the tears rolling down the cheeks, and god forbid if your wearing mascarra... "

Reminds me of a similar incident


i feel vunrable to be seen crying, like im some how exposing a weakness in me, so that if i ever do loose the control of holding in my tears, it usually because i have lost control of my emotions. but the light at the end of the tunnel continues to shine. and dua is seriously a powerful tool.

It is not a sign of weakness at all, it is a sign of love, espression of feelings towards someone. The truth that sometimes this kind of cry is a wake up call for us "men" that we are guilty hurting our partner emotions and being heartless, it does work only if two persons are in love. If it is one way street, the crying episode has no effect on the person.

Tears On My Pillow/As tears go

youtube.com/watch?v=_9sInaJ6JMg
youtube.com/watch?v=wXkIuMvIF6g

and this one to make you laugh when you cry

supersonic.ms11.net/Usher_Baby.swf

UT said...

Hi WA!

I sure hope you are better.

The serenity Prayer can do wonders and has for me. When all else fails I repeat it to myself and I feel so much better. Please try it WA, and see the difference....

God grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change,Courage to change the things I can , and wisdom to know the difference.


May Allah bless you , my dear always.

Crowded Mind said...

Glad to hear that your oki sis
I'm so happy for you
fe aman Allah

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