Friday, May 30, 2008
say for instance you go to a gathering, say a wedding, people will come up to you and they have to give you the 'up and down look' you know the one, where she starts from your hair and scans you all the way down to your shoes then back up again.
these ladies would be perfect at working for airport security or maybe whilst shes scanning me with her eyes i could ask her whether shes detected any biological abnormalities in me, if your gonna be scanning me with your eyes lady then i might as well gain some sort of benefit by knowing whether i have long to live!!!
then its a case of 'you look so yellow', 'my god look at you, whats happened you've lost weight, your cheeks and eyes have gone in, you used to look so healthy before' or the opposite, 'my my you have put weight on, u had such a nice figure before' that extra weight on your toe will prevent you from getting married' (ok slight exaggeration).
or woman trying to constantly fix you some how, they cant help but reach out with their hands and change the hairstyle that took you 45 minutes to perfect, and every one is a qualified beautician, no matter how good you think your make up is some one is bound to say its not dark enough, or not enough per say...
blah blah blah blah blah blah
occasionally you will be shocked by a nice gesture from some one, but seriously why start with the negative. talk about 7ateming ma3naweeyatna.
sigh......
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
any way i got a text this morning from a friend who claims she is bored and that i need to blog! well ok then lol...
so here i am sat in an Internet cafe, typing away, aware of the fact that time is of the essence.
i know i know I'm supposed to blog about the holiday, wedding etc... i will, i need to be in a certain mood for that.
i started work yesterday, wooooopeeeedooo da day....
before that i actually was not sitting at home twiddling my fingers as some people have accused me of (you know who you are), instead i have been running errands for my husband!!! he went back to work straight after the honey moon and because I'm had taken more time of he thinks i should benefit from my time lol.
plus my family from Libya didn't get there visas in time for the wedding, instead they got it after the wedding so they decided they would come any way, so they entertained us for 3 weeks.
the reason they where not given a visa straight away is because of the darn bureaucracies,
'we need 3 months bank statements'
ok, so we faxed them over
to which then they changed there minds and said actually we need 6 months..
ok them so we sent over 50 pages via fax
after that they said ummmmm actually we need the originals not copies.
well Libya's fantastic postal system meant it was near to impossible for us to send it via post, so we had to wait until some one was returning to Libya from the UK so we could get them to hand over an envelope full of 6 months worth of bank statements.
by the time they agreed to give the visas, the wedding was over and i was flying to Egypt.
double bloody standards...
anyway i have been busy with the extended family, and it was great to see them, i had seen them all recently (2003) whereas my mother last saw her sister 24 years ago!!! long time.
anyway i will blog soon i promise...
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
time flies eh?
well its been 3 weeks since the wedding, i recently came back from Egypt, had a great time mashallah, will post the pic up soon.
back to normalcy that is life, not that I'm used to it yet, it takes time i guess, the weirdest thing was when i came back from honey moon, i kinda expected to be dropped of at my parents house lol, see that's what I'm used to, every time i come back from abroad i return to my parents house, this time it was different, and it felt weird.
anyway I'm not back at work yet so for the moment I'm doing the housey housey thing...
will blog later the arabic coffee is over flowing on the cooker...
Thursday, April 03, 2008
the stage before with all sorts piled on to it
the props:


the cake table:
and when the cakes came:
chocolate of course:
the food was a mixture of couscous, imbatin, borak, of course imsayr mmmmm:
as for me, it took a while to wrap me up in all my gear but i eventually got there though i wouldn't stop fidgeting, cant show the full pic as I'm not hijabified:

an ending with green tea mmmm
and that was it, it was a fun night hamdullilah, i didn't actually put any henna on that night, a few days later i decided i would henna, i love the stuff.Saturday, March 22, 2008
for the past couple of days i have been moving my things from my room to my flat, and at first it was kinda exciting, fun etc..
yesterday i don't know what came over me, i guess it hit me that I'm leaving the house that i grew up in, and the tears would not stop, walahi at one point i was telling my eyes of
me: right stop it now, stop crying, why are you still over flowing with the tears business.
lets just say my fiance walked in to this scene and bless him did not know what to do lol.
i think he must have thought i had gone mad, i thought i was being quite seeing how i didn't want any one to hear me, but i got caught.
anyway once the tears started it wouldn't stop, and i felt so silly, every one was reassuring me that at least I'm living in the same city, that my flat is a 7 minute walk away from my parents house, blah blah blah.
i know all that but no matter what people are telling me i cant help feeling slightly down with the idea of leaving.
i want to be 6 again...
Friday, March 21, 2008
i have an announcement.
i have been very quite about this but i think its time I mention it.
Monday, March 17, 2008
the other day i ventured into town to do some shopping, i cant stand shopping when its busy, i remember as a child my mum used to complain that she gets a headache from shopping, i would look at her with shock and think 'my god, how is that even possible', now i am echoing my mothers words.Friday, March 14, 2008
i wish i could play the darbuka.Sunday, March 09, 2008
my mother is one of those drivers who is extremely confident with her driving but only if she knows where she is going.Thursday, March 06, 2008
a certain patient came in the other day to see the Practice Nurse, quite a friendly lady when things go the way she wants.Tuesday, March 04, 2008
I'm sat here at work and a chocolate cup cake is whispering things to me
Saturday, March 01, 2008
i think i can see the light at the end of the tunnel.its a slow walk towards it but the light is constantly there :)
thanks dearest bloggers for your brilliant words of advise, its great just typing away how i feel and its even better reading your supportive words.
when people say that life is a journey, they really are not kidding. a journey on a roller coaster of emotions and its funny how fragile we can be at times and how amazingly strong we can be at other times. the mind is seriously a maze that anyone can get lost in, and it needs filtering now and then. trials and tribulations make us who we are, and a clever person will come out with lessons that have been learnt.
idinyah ma taswah....
Monday, February 25, 2008
is there such a thing as unconditional support? obviously no but i would settle for 50%.
how about being sensitive to other peoples life pressures?
how about not complicating matters?
I'm being stretched from all directions and i can hear the sound of something about to rip.
can you stitch your own limbs back?
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
you really never think of yourself as emotional until life triggers your emotions to spill out and then your left with the feeling of revealing too much.Tuesday, February 12, 2008
The man serving me was Asian, and before asking me what type of bread I wanted he asked instead 'are you Iranian?'
'Excuse me' I replied, I didn’t catch what he had said.
'Are you Iranian?' speaking slightly louder.
Iranian oh, no I’m not' all the time thinking I want the Italian bread, Italian bread Italian bread.
'So what are you' he said
I nearly said Italian lol
'I’m Libyan' all the while contemplating on whether I should be having this conversation with this dude.
'Libyan, oooooooooh, your capital is Beirut'
'Beirut?' ?????? He really confused me, and then it hit me, he thought I meant Lebanon.
'No dude, the capital of Libya is Tripoli, Libya is in the north of Africa'
'What?'
Seriously I was beginning to walk away...
My brother then says to him, 'bro you know gaddafi'
To which I turned around to my brother and told him of, it irates me when people associate Libya with that man.
To which the man says 'gaddafi?'
To which my brother replies' you know gadafi stadium in Lahore'
The man then says ' I hate Pakistan'
????????????????
I couldn’t help laughing out loud.
Then asking what fillings we wanted, tuna, he continued to talk and came out with an extremely weird conspiracy theory that I had never heard of.
'You know gaddafi killed Bhutto?
???????????????
'He killed Bhutto? And where did you hear that from?'
noooooooo not this Bhutto, the one in 1978'
???????????
yep that makes sense.
Well what could I say apart from 'oh I see'
He then switches topics and asks about a book I was holding. 'What you reading?'
I was holding ibn kathirs book titled 'stories of the prophets', so I told him what it was to which he replies 'yes yes, I like the story of ali'
????????
ali? I was going to say that ail (ra) was not a prophet, but from where I was standing it looked easier to argue the Bhutto case.
I love Manchester.
Friday, February 08, 2008

mmmm roasted nuts with libyan tea, simply beautiful...
and of course put them all together and you get an amazing winter treat Thursday, January 31, 2008
Monday, January 21, 2008
the other day i arrived at work early in the morning, took out my keys, its so routine that i don't have to think about it any more, or so i thought..
i literally stood there for 10 minutes trying to open the main door with my keys, the stupid key wouldn't even go in, i kept looking at the key, examining it, then trying to place it into the key hole, but for some weird reason it wouldn't fit, at this point i was getting frustrated and to top it all of i was wet.
i then came to the realisation that some one must have changed the locks, no other explanation.. so i stood there cursing every one i could think of who might have been involved in changing the locks.
i started to rummage around in my bag, looking for my mobile so i can call the manager, when i felt something at the bottom of my bag, low and behold it was a bunch of keys...
my god it was my work keys, i looked down at my hand and it struck me what the problem was, i was holding my house key, i was trying to open work with my house key!!!!!!!!!!
it doesn't even resemble my work key, and not only that my work keys come in a bunch attached to a key ring, my house key is a singular key, how in the world did i confuse between them??????
walahi guys i stood there laughing at myself for what seemed forever.
seriously why!!!
Friday, January 18, 2008
sometimes it seems that life hands out a case of 'everything going wrong' and just when you think life hates you, it turns itself around and gives you a tremendous hug ;)




